am i performing bi for my husband during MFM

this is gonna sound weird. we do a lot of MFM, its my husbands thing and tbh i enjoy it. recently the bull weve been seeing is also bi and at our last meet he and my husband got into it a bit, like properly. i told my husband afterwards i found it really hot and i did, i absolutely did. but then on the drive home i started wondering if id said it because i actually felt it or because i knew it would make him happy. and that question kinda spiraled into am i actually bi-curious myself or have i just been performing for years because thats what the LS rewards in women. like... we kiss other women at parties and its fine but is "fine" enough? how do you know if a turn-on is yours or borrowed. anyone else been here