i said yes to ls to keep the peace and im finally admitting it

been 3 years in. my partner wanted this badly. i said yes because... honestly because i was scared what would happen if i said no. we'd had a rough patch and this felt like the thing that would either fix us or end us. and ive been performing enthusiasm for 3 years. ive enjoyed maybe 30% of it. but ive never said the words out loud until i typed them just now. dublin couple. how do you walk this back without burning everything down