partner died, considering returning to the LS as a widow... is this awful

lost hubby 18 months ago, hes been gone long enough that the grief is liveable but not fixed. weve been LS for 22 yrs, our circle was our extended family. they were lovely thru the funeral and the first yr, ive seen most of them at coffees and dinners. now ive started feeling sexual again and i dont know what to do w that. i miss the LS but going as a single woman feels diff. im 62. is this disrespectful to him, is the LS even welcoming to a returning widow, am i mad for considering it 18 months in. need honest advice from people whove been here