we took a break from the LS in 2023 and i dont know if were ever actually coming back

this is gonna ramble bear with me. so we (f43 he 45, married 18 yrs, in the LS since like 2013) took what was supposed to be a "couple of months off" in spring 2023 bc he had a health thing — nothing scary in hindsight but it scared us at the time — and we just... never restarted. its been over 2 yrs now. profile is still up actually, hasnt been logged into in 19 months, the app keeps emailing me "you have 3 new messages" like im gonna come running. heres the weird part. neither of us misses it the way i thought we would. i miss specific PEOPLE — one couple from cleveland we used to vacation with, this woman m who used to make me laugh in the dressing room — but i dont miss the going. i dont miss the getting ready. i dont miss the after-party crash. our sex life is fine, maybe even better honestly bc its less performative. we still talk about it like we're gonna get back to it "this summer" and then we dont, and last summer we said "fall" and we didnt, and now im just saying it out of habit. but i also dont want to delete the profile bc deleting the profile feels final and im not ready to say it's final. like the LS was 10 yrs of our life. our closest friends from that era are still in it. our best vacations were LS vacations. saying we're "out" feels like saying that part of us is dead and i dont want to bury something that might not be dead. ppl who took a long break — like a yr plus — did you come back. did you come back as the same kind of LS couple you were before or did it morph into something else. and how do you tell the difference between a break and a slow ending. asking bc i genuinely cannot tell which one this is anymore