went from full back to soft after a really bad night — anyone else done this

we were full swap for like 8 months. had a great run honestly. then about 5 weeks ago a session went south — wont go into the whole thing but basically she came home crying and i was numb for like 3 days. we talked a lot, cried more, and decided to pull WAY back. now we're at soft same-room only and even that feels like a lot some nights. anyone else done the full-to-soft walk back? does the desire to do full ever come back or once u step away does the body just go nah we're done. also kinda embarrassed to tell our usual play partners we're scaling down